Saturday, 24 May 2008
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"believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together."
- Marilyn Monroe
I feel unsure again. How do I know if somethings real? How do I know if it's still there? How do I know people can hear me? Do I still exist? Am I scared? Is what I see in the mirror the person everyone else can see? Am I the only one in this planet that can hear that blaring scream inside of me? How come I no longer feel tears rolling down my face? Does that mean I'm okay now? When I see other faces, how come I can the pain they feel when just standing beside them? I have everything, yet feel so empty, but why? What am I feeling anticipation for? What am I waiting for exactly?
waiting...
waiting...
Still waiting.
Should I keep waiting? Is there way you can tell them to understand what you're trying to say? Are they going to understand? Is there any point in telling them? Do they even understand me? Do they want to understand me? Can they even see you? hardly. Do they even know you? Recognize you?
So I'm here in my room, again, in front of the computer, hoping that something exciting will catch my attention. It's no wonder I hate being trapped inside the rooms. Memories, the past life seeps through the walls of my room, and the longer I stay in here, bit by bit it seeps into my skin, my head too. How do I deal with that? I know that I've been dying to get out of the past, so why does it get to me? Does it feel like I'm falling into the same past that I foolishly fell into last time? I thought I was smarter? I'd tell the difference between real and fake, no?
Whatever. I'm moving on to the next thing that matters in my life.
If coming along, then come, but I'm moving on no matter what, I'm not waiting around anymore. Sooner or later I'll be over it. Things change. So can I. I already have.
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